Nova Rants: Bittersweet Endings

I have a lot of feelings [most of which are indescribable] so bear with me. There's a feeling after reading a final book in which the ending is unclear or bittersweet; especially for a series that's very close and personal. Soon the feelings take over everything you do and then before you know it, you've got a full blown book hangover. You don't know whether to cry or to read it again; to scream or to declare your love for the book.

I'm sure you've probably read a book like this. I can name quite off the top of my head. And yeah, there are books that'll make you feel kind of hungover for a day... or a week, right?

Try six months.

Reading that book was the best worst evilest most beautiful screw it, I don't know even know with this one. I suppose, i's all of them.

Bittersweet endings, or more specifically, Saving Elliot [a book on wattpad], completely wrecked me with its ending.The thing the author did with this book was give a taste of hope for the characters and then, quicker than reading speed, take it all away. Saving Elliot was pretty much everything I want in a book: a bad boy, a sarcastic girl, raging fire chemistry and horrible backstories.

By a quarter into the book, I knew that this was going to be a favorite of mine. See, unlike so many books, this one made me feel something. And it didn't just make me feel once; it made me feel over and over and over which for me, has always been hard in books.
And maybe that's why even after such a long period of time, I'm still not over it.

I think of it kind of like having an old crush. Where you know you'll always like him but you'll never get the ending you want. And if you've ever had middle school/high school crushes, maybe you understand what I mean.

This ending just did everything to me! I don't know whether to cry or to laugh. It's like I've forgotten how to function and I have to constantly remind myself, it's just a book! [Haha, no it isn't!] I want to do a re read, but I feel like it will make it worse. Then on the contrary, another part of me argues that nothing can be worse than crying over the fact that this book isn't real.

Have you ever had a book hangover? Was it as bad as mine? Or do you have a remedy for how I'm feeling? Do, share!