Is it a little funny that I'm having a mid-life crisis at thirteen? Whoa. And I might just be thinking too hard on this, but seriously.
I'm taking a moment to go "whoa. What have I been doing for the last six months?" Because for me, the last six months have been a whirlwind adventure and thinking about all this stuff in one shot give me a moment of (gif above.)
You know that moment where you start book blogging and you're like:
Come on! Every blogger has this moment at one point in their "career". I know I was completely lost when I first started. No one ever told me about publishers, how to request ARCs, how to make graphics, discussion posts and everything else people read blogs for. It was a complete disaster for about the first six months of blogging where I was posting useless promo and doing absolutely no communication with other bloggers.
And let me mention that my first blog design was one of Blogger's standard ones... *shudders* Those were some pretty dark days.
That's why I only started taking things seriously in June. But even then, I didn't have any readers, commenters or ARCs. It was starting to make me feel really bad about my blog, even though I can see that there's nothing wrong. More because now, I already have the ARCs that I want and realized I didn't care anymore. If you're a newbie blogger, trust me, ARCs aren't all that good at least not all the time.
I'm used to being the one with no readers. The one no one ever notices because I'm young and "dat awkward baby book blogger." So what happens that moment where that starts to change.
So here is my post going: I'm scared. Now, I feel like I'm making myself some random responsibilities that I have to take care of. All those amazing bloggers that I looked up to and still do, have done so much and I'm starting to feel like I have to do just as much or even more (for whatever reason).
I'm not a little blogger anymore and it's going to freak me out until I can get over it. I still don't have IMPRESSIVE stats, but apparently good enough ones to attract pubs. I feel like this is some kind of crisis for me. I'm making a huge deal of myself but I'm not used to being anything more than a speck of dust (blogging and real life; real life especially... I'm kind of a nerd. lol)